To my boyfriend. To my love. To the one.
The one who I met during my world trip.
Who followed me around wherever I went.
From Thailand, to Bali, to Australia, to Fiji.
That was just the very beginning of our journey.
Here’s the ways in which I will love you.
I won’t keep writing cheesy love poems or keep complimenting you. I will say what I think and be verbal about things you can work on, about what I don’t particularly like because there will be some things I won’t. I want the same in return so we will grow.
I will love you.
There will be no reason.
Not any particular thing but you as a whole.
So you can change and grow, you can progress and you can evolve. As long as you are you at the core, you have all my love.
I will love and let you love me.
To love and to be loved, the two greatest feelings in this world. I will be just as vulnerable as you let yourself be. If you come to me as an ocean with big waves, surely, without hesitating, I will jump into you and drown. For someone who despises the water, that is how much I love you.
Whatever path it may be, you won’t walk alone.
On rainy days, I will share my umbrella and on windy days I will not make fun of your hair. On sunny ones I will share my ice cream and when your shoes are worn out, I will stop with you and help you fix them. Or wait until you find new ones that are just the right fit.
I will give you all my maps and some flashlights too so you can go on to explore parts of me I don’t display.
There won’t be anything you will not know if you want to. I won’t let you read my diaries but I will let you read my soul.
I will step out of the goof closet I have been living in all my life.
I will show you who I really am and make you laugh and smile and blush and yell.
I will say yes to adventure.
Wherever we go, I will always be adventurous with you. We will share the interest of traveling and we will understand the world like no one else. Everyone will wonder how it’s possible that we see so much together, and the answer will always be love.
I will cook and clean. Haha, yes, I will.
Cause I know you will keep my heart fed and the dark corners of my mind clean.
I won’t demand your phone/email/bank passwords.
Because all I really want is to look in your eyes and know what you are thinking, to touch you and know what you’re feeling and to love a person I know as well and as little as myself.
I will love you every day, with or without you.
I will love the lazy days as well as all the days we forget what day of the week it is or what time it really is because we are lost in time zones, on airplanes and in between magic.
When we argue I will not stay silent or keep anything on the inside.
I will get it all out so that there is never anything ugly left to grow on the inside. I will give you my all and everything. Be honest and transparent.
I will be 100% in.
A year ago I had everything planned and then everything collapsed when I met you. And it feels so right, so real. I do not doubt a second that meeting you happened for a reason. This world journey was not supposed to stop and I was not supposed to start study right after I met you. Now I know that my life next year at this time is going to be something I can’t even imagine. So I will plan weekly, do fun things daily and breathe freely. I’ll be 100% in. Whatever I will do, I will do it 100%. Cause you know that? What happens when people open their hearts? They get better.
I will see you differently.
We all see the same things quite much alike. The stars, the moon, the grass, the sand, the mountains, the clouds, the sky, the dirt, the rain, the water, the river, the ocean, the world. But I will see you differently.
I will build a life with you.
I just want a life of happiness, laughter and possibility. I want my passion to pay my bills. I want to spend my time, eating good food, drinking healthy smoothies and making unremarkable memories with my love. I want people that can be honest enough to tell me, if I fuck up, so I can fix it and also beautiful enough to tell me when I am good. I want you, my love, who are not afraid to love me with every inch of your heart but also fearless in keeping your individual voice as we grow together. You and me. You and me.